After a week of soul searching, praying and trying really hard to figure out “what’s wrong with me?!” God spoke deeply into my heart at this intersection…
All around our city roads are under construction.
Even the highways surrounding our city are all under construction… BIG construction.
There is hardly anywhere you can go without being detoured, or made to slow down because of the demolition and re-building taking place.
I’ve driven alongside barricades, with shoulders raised, as roads turn in unexpected ways, changing directions weekly.
I’ve heeded the 20 mph warning signs, as my mind has raced in a hurry to make it to our destination.
I’ve detoured, sought new routes, watched construction equipment, and waited…
I’ve spent a good amount of time thinking about how this state of being “under construction” has inconvenienced me, gotten in the way of my plans, and generally made life more stressful/difficult.
But, until this morning, I hadn’t thought much about the future outcome…
The roads are being prepared for growth.
New ones are being made and old ones are being made new.
The former state of being wasn’t sufficient for the travel to come.
But the new state will be able to hold so much more.
Each road is being built and designed by a master builder, one who can see the whole plan and knows what lies ahead.
All of the roads are being constructed for the betterment of everyone involved.
And then, I am soberly reminded of the construction going on in my heart.
The inconvenient, ugly, dirty, brokenness that has been brought to light in my heart’s eyes.
I’ve looked at it with disgust and complained about its presence.
But never once have I thought about it being a plan by the Master Builder to prepare the way in my life for more of what He has to come…
Nope, I’ve wallowed in the shame of my brokenness, wishing I was made whole as I used to be, not seeing the wonderful work God is doing while breaking my hard ground.
And now, with new eyes that drip tears down warm cheeks, I see God’s hand at work and rest in the fact that this current state of my heart isn’t here to stay. I’m just… Under Construction.
Something I’m thinking about.
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